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11 February 2011 @ 04:33 pm
Why are John and Dave so gay for each other? My over-slashed mind isn't even needed for this shit. Seriously.

And I still have 1,500 pages to go before I'm caught up. *cries in a corner*

EDIT: Thank you, Year 1 Recap for linking me to my still favorite scene in all of Homestuck's 4,000 pages so far: No one can ever know about this.

ILY, Dave. Never change.
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Rageosaurus Rex!
11 February 2011 @ 12:10 pm
OKAY. Why would you be pissed because your friend brought the shoes you wanted, and the store become sold out when you finally got enough money for them? IT'S NOT YOUR FRIEND'S FAULT, jesus. Then, to write an entire episode to showcase how spoiled your friend actually is, and to be a dick to her because she's ignorant, sure, but definitely trying to help/learn?

M: I brought all these clothes for the drive. :3
F: They're useless and new. You should sacrifice a part of yourself! D< *insults and ignores*

How is that a good lesson? Seriously? Oh, let's not educate the clueless but willing to change girl. She'll learn on her own, and not withdraw further into herself at all. GREAT IDEA.

I need to stop watching PB Kids. It rots my brain.

"Caillou didn't know it yet but this walk in woods was going to very special..." Um, what? xD That sounded so bad in and out of context.
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Rageosaurus Rex!
10 February 2011 @ 12:10 am
Oh, yeah. His name is Huxley, and he's shiny and red. >:3

And he's a HP netbook. Still getting used to the decreased size but hey, he's still lovely. <3
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Rageosaurus Rex!
05 February 2011 @ 04:49 pm
Okay. It's still awkward to have Finn sing 'Losing My Religion', mostly to Kurt. I mean, isn't it about unrequited love? I WONDER. THANKS, GLEE. :l
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Rageosaurus Rex!
23 January 2011 @ 08:39 pm
Why are we getting another possible three to fucking four FEET of snow just on Wednesday alone? D:

There's still a good two feet out there now. >:[ Fuck this winter so hard in the ass.

Oh, right. And I'm turning twenty three tomorrow too. I'm going to start the sobbing at midnight.
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Rageosaurus Rex!
16 January 2011 @ 09:21 pm
So, I'm roleplaying my boy Milk (because I finally found a plot perfection for him! OMG EXCITMENT!). When I rebuilt his playlist in iTunes, I realized a very important thing;

Fiona Apple's Criminal is like his favorite song ever? All I can picture is teen!Milk sitting in his room listening it to on repeat, mouthing the words as Adam pitches a fit downstairs in the living room.

Current Mood: impressedimpressed
Rageosaurus Rex!
07 January 2011 @ 04:57 pm
Or not. I'm tired of everything right now, my job, my family, my life. It's hopelessness after nothing I felt is worth it. I'm not really surprised. The winter months always pretty much bring these feelings. It's just, I normally get the Spring thru Fall break. That helps.

This year I spend 60% of the summer depressed too. I'm trying my damnest to snap or trick myself out of it. I'm trying to concentrate on improving the situation, a better job so I won't be so stressed about bills and money. A better job so I can get health insurance and see a doctor for my cold allergy, for my stomach issues or depression or transgendered issues because if someone calls me Shayna one more time or just female-pronouns, I'm giving up.

Of course, this was the December plan. December was the month without a laptop charger. It finally arrived towards the end. I rejoyced by playing video games because shut up, it wasn't making me feel like shit. I'm escapist. So this week (the third month Fridays has cut my fucking hours down to maybe 20), I started up the better life hunt again.

The results ended with 'I'm not qualifed for any of this,' 'I'm even more depressed,' and 'Oh, now my laptop is fully broken and useless'. Cue the almost tears and me almost throwing the damn things across the living room. Had I been alone, I probably would've done both.

I know these are ridiculously stupid reasons to get under my skin and they're not the only things bugging and depressing me, just the only ones I feel like talking about. I know there's ten thousand reasons my life is great and totally worth living. But, if I'm honest with myself, I don't .see many of those reasons. In fact, the only ones I feel for right now don't have anything to do with my well-being but others. You'll make others sad so no. You'll just become another 50/30 statistics which you said would never happen. I don't think these thoughts are all that healthy either. I should want this for myself, not Mum'll cry, your friends will cry and a gravestone marked Shayna Clark is absolutely out of the question.

Which isn't to say I'd do anything. I don't want to cause hardships for people any more than needed. I'm just tired, depressed and isolating myself again. I'm just trying to work out my thoughts yet again. It sucks. I hate being just emotional. I don't want to I hate being weak because I know that's not the cause but I feel that way. I hate its been at least six years and I'm still dealing with hopelessness almost on predictable basis, hate its still awful enough to cripple my normally self to this apathetic shell.

I'm going to take a shower and cut my hair again. Maybe I'll feel a see bit more energetic and me.
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Current Music: Zombies Everywhere - Karate High School
Rageosaurus Rex!
02 January 2011 @ 09:04 pm
Spoilers. o:Collapse )
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Rageosaurus Rex!
26 December 2010 @ 12:46 pm
 While it was small, Christmas just killed me. I was around my family or working without almost no sleep for like ...72 hours? And they wonder why I got bitchy towards the end. 

But, I got some nifty stuff. Mainly,

Super Scribblenauts from Will. So much fun.
Rune Factory 3. So much love. SO MUCH.
Supernatural Season 1 & 2. :D <3
Firefly from Kyle. Happy days~
And the rest of Scott Pilgrim I was missing. 

And I'm home (yay!) watching commentaries and playing RF3. I half-way done I think which is mildly depressing (I'm on Summer 10th, Year 1). :[ 
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Rageosaurus Rex!
13 December 2010 @ 11:08 pm
So. I don't know what's wrong with me. It clearly should be something. Recurring cramping, digestive problems, and other pleasantries. It's not like it's weeks or months recurring, years with breaks in between but it always comes back. Normally when my diet goes to shit, I've noticed.

So, it's something. Clearly. Be it food allergy, digestive disorder or diesease, I don't know. I just gotta keep a journal or notes.

Same thing like my migraines. Smoke is a definite trigger with lack of sleep, food, and liquids, too much viewing of LCD screens, too little caffeine...


Because I'm malnourished, plain and simple.

Eat. Fucking. Better. Gabe. >:(
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